but you're no better..

Hello Reader.

I haven't blogged in awhile. No real reason to. Not really a whole lot happening. Just volleyball. I've just finally had enough with the caddy girls in my school. It's so annoying. Like, seriously people.. you're in high school? who the hell cares if i called you a bitch. GET THE HELL OVER IT! you have 3 years of it happening to you. you're gonna have your high and low points in life. just shut up and get over it. for me it's so hard not to just fight right back with the dumb bitches. they're so fucking immature. they put facebook status' about it. like seriously? i called you a bitch. i'll say it to your face and i'll give you five damn good reasons why i think you are too. its so stupid and dumb. i'm glad people have enough time to sit here and start drama.. like are you kidding me. you're no better than anyone else so come back down from your imaginary world where you run the show and get to reality. i'll happily slap you across the face too but, it's gonna hurt even more when high school does. so, there's not point. and while you're at it. stay the fuck away from my guy. okay? get it!? go away, suck a penis. do something you're good at cause you suck at life and living. okay? sounds fucking great.

i'm frustrated..

Be..

I'm only a freshman in High School. And it doesn't really occur to you when you're my age that you're a role model to younger people until you see it happen. I play volleyball. I see 8th graders who show up to every game just to see what it's gonna take for them to make the team next year. You see them at Varsity games and you look at their faces in awe. They look up to us on the court but, it's what we do after the game. After the bad play that they REALLY pay attention to. How we react to a missed serve and shanked  ball and out of bounds hit is what they look at. They want to resemble us, they want to play like us. But, while they look up to us. We look up to the older girls. The juniors and seniors. We look at how they play, the techniques they use, the motivational words they give each other. Everything they do, we want to copy it and duplicate it. Our mission is to play like them because one day we hope to be in their shoes, on the services line, hearing our names called stepping out and waving at the people who look up to us. You don't realize it till you see it. Off the court, in the halls, on the streets, they see us and they watch your every move. The people you hang out with, the language you use. As you grow older, the closer they look; how fast you drive, the music that plays in your car, the people in your car, if you text and drive. Be the person you want someone else to be. Be the role model. Be mature and responsible. Let younger kids know that it's TOTALLY okay not doing drugs and partying and smoking. Be the change you want to see..

now i'm haunted.

so it's been awhile, i must say.
i'm so very tired but, i need to blog. i literally can't sleep till i do. i know that after this i won't sleep for like another hour, i'm gonna read for like ever. i'm starting to thoroughly enjoy reading and doing things i though i didn't like. like hiking, love it now. it's sooo nice to have an adventure. like no joke, i'm not a nature person but having the suspense of not knowing if what ever you're about to step on is stable and gonna be able to hold you up and not let you fall. i also have started to LOVE meditations. it's not for people who are like weird and stuff. it's really nice. you're just at piece with yourself. i highly suggest that even for the slightest bit of stress that you meditate. it's a great releaver!
i'm having a hard time keeping my eyes open i know this entry was boring and stufff but, i can't even stay awake at this point. thank gosh my homework is done. :)))

you can't love me.

readers,

it's such a late time in the day for a blog. i know. tell me about it. i'm like hardly even awake right now but, it's weird going to bed and not having blogged. let me tell you about my day, shall i? i went to school, that's obvious. then i had a volleyball game. we won. what a good way to start of our season. i'm super happy about that! then, i went to football walk through 'cause i'm a student trainer as well as volleyball. it's a lot of work. then i got home at like 8:30- 9ish. Then I took a shower and wined down.

Today went super fast & I love fast days. :)
Tomorrow is Friday and I have a three day weekend. :)))))
I'm WAYY happy about that lol. I do have boy stories but I know you're probably sick of hearing them, so I won't go there tonight, but that's honestly the one thing I can't get off my mind! It sucks. Haha, This is the one blog that has NO point. Anyway, I hope you're day was good.  Sleep tight, bloggers.